Bear with me

I have not one single organized thought it my head today.
These are the things that are rattling around in my brain today.....

How long do refrigerators typically last? Ours is 4 1/2 years old. I've hated it since the day we got it, but I don't want it to be on the fritz already. We have too many other things to replace right now. I pulled a water out from the top shelf, and it's a water slushy. Nothing on the other shelves is frozen. This hasn't happened before.

There is a cardinal in our yard as I type. Spring is getting here slowly!

I do not want to work at my evening job anymore. I get home late, and don't make much money. I don't mind working, and contributing, but it's awful to "work" all day and then have to go to another job.

I actually get a little excited when Macie shows jealousy towards Emma. It's not for selfish reasons (such as.....awwww look, they both want Mommy), it just reminds me that Macie is making progress, and she is showing emotion more and more everyday.

I ask the question every.single.day- "why me?". I wouldn't have it any other way, but on the hard days I have that very question....then I feel guilty for wondering.

I analyze EVERY move Emma makes....looking for a sign that something is "off" with her too. Do I get her evaluated, or do I wait?

I want to be that parent that complains about their kids talking their ears off. I am so jealous, and sad. When we are driving in the car I plead with Macie to have a conversation with me. She smiles at me, and continues to look out the window. I still talk her ear off, and I sing to her, but I want her to talk back to me! Silence is NOT golden around here!

And HERE is where I would like to be someday. I literally just got this link to this blog as I was typing this post. Coincidence???? I'll stop here, and go take a pill! You might need one too after reading this. Welcome to my head.....EVERY.SINGLE.DAY! You may make a brief visit once in a while, but I don't recommend staying long.