Mom guilt

Mom guilt!  I feel it every friggin day. I see all the Facebook posts of Moms keeping their kids busy with activities, sports, crafts, play groups, etc. I read these posts and my heart hurts. I want to be “that Mom”, I want to keep my kids busy and entertained.
Our extent of entertaining this past Thanksgiving break included: going to grandma and Papas house which was awesome. Macie played outside with all her cousins for about 10 minutes.  Her pup ran around with her and kept her safe when she wandered. We went to a tree farm and cut down our own Xmas tree. Emma hung out with her cousins while we basically forced Macie to hang with us. She lasted about 1/2 hour and wanted a tree of her own. We then went to Grandma Casey’s house to put up decorations and decorate the tree. Emma enjoyed it and we had Macie put a few ornaments on the tree and take some pictures.  She does enjoy it, but for a limited time. I️ so appreciate everyone trying to make her experiences the same. It’s hard.
That was basically all Macie can handle for the next few weeks. We have to prepare her for Xmas eve and Xmas day..... that takes time.
Christmas break is pretty rough. It’s cold out, Macie doesn’t wear a coat unless playing in snow. I️ can’t just run out and do something fun with my girls. That’s where Mama guilt sets in, I want to do all the fun holiday stuff with my kids. Emma suffers (maybe a bad word), because we can’t do the mall, the zoo, the santa thing.
For real, 6-9 months out of the year I feel like the worst mom EVER. I would give my left boob.... ok both, to do all the fun activities that come with the seasons. It would take an army to prepare myself and Macie to take an excursion outside the house. Even  the grocery store.
Mom guilt is for real and it sucks!  End rant.
Sorry if there’s typos, i did this on the fly.

Getting sleep, FINALLY!!!!

I haven't had a good nights sleep in about 8 years!!!!  We finally decided to let Wrigley sleep in Macie's bed for the duration and OMG......she sleeps a solid 9 hours.  Rewind back to 5 months ago and this Momma got ZERO sleep!  Macie has always been a restless sleeper.  At one point, I spent many hours staring at a video monitor and made myself crazy.   I finally gave up and ditched the monitor......I had to......for my sanity.   Since Wrigley has snuggled up in Macie's bed.....pure bliss for all.  She sleeps soundly now for many hours, and I have peace of mind because I know she's sleeping better than she has in 8 years.  This pup has brought more peace and joy to Macie's life, and ours, than anything.  Win Win!
This post seems all about Me, but it's not....it's just the beginning of this amazing journey with an amazing girl and her best friend.....her first friend.

New!!!!

I have decided to start blogging again.  There are so many amazing updates with Macie and Wrigley that I feel facebook peeps are annoyed with my posts.....understandable.
This will be my outlet so read or don't.  I really want to document the relationship with Macie and her pup.